Today's the day

I had no idea how much it would hurt to say goodbye. I knew it would be sad, but I kept it together pretty darn well the last couple of weeks. Right up until we pulled into the airport parking lot I was calm, cool, collected, and stoked! But then the butterflies came. And the nausea. And the tears. Never ever in my life have I been so emotional in public, but I was a blubbering mess when I said goodbye to my daddy at security, and heard my boyfriend's voice on the phone one last time. I know it will get better, and like I always say - 83 days will go by in the blink of an eye! But for right now, it might as well be a million years.

Normally I love airports, like LOVE airports, but that's cos I always have my best friends - my family - to keep me occupied while I'm waiting to board. Today, I feel more alone than I have in my entire life. So alone. Gaaaah it sounds so depressing, I know. And to be honest I'm not that depressed. I'm happy and excited to see what God has in store for me - so keep praying! It's just going to take some getting used to...

With love,